The night, the river and you...

...I came home from workies last night toting my Amy Sedaris book with me, and I had a really good case of the "Goddammit, what the hell am I doing?" sort of thoughts. Lately at work the Union stuff is boiling over, and people keep chasing me down the halls demanding to know what I personally am gonna do about it all. I tell them, "I'm aware of the situation,the other union guy and I are working on it, if you wanna help that would be awesome but we can't fix this stuff alone." I've even been chased around lately for things that I have NO control over whatsoever, like the art being installed in a gallery on third. "Nossir, I cannot control what the curators decide to do; It's nice you think I have that sort of ultimate power, but I charge extra for becoming all-powerful, you know that, yes?" I'm doing my best, but I have to admit it's wearing me down a bit. So it was good to come home with my new cookbook and read the sillier bits over soba noodles and crab dumplings...

And I fell asleep later reading it. Normally I'm not the sort of person who takes a cookbook as a bedtime story, but hey, this was exceptional:)

Was it responsible for the weird dreams I had? I don't think so. I kept dreaming about an old boyfriend and his wife trying to get me to come to dinner and talk to them. (We all parted on very bad terms...sheesh, over a decade ago.) I kept being resistant in the dream, even to the point of jumping out of a moving car.I just wanted to be left alone. Normally I'd dismiss this sort of thing as an "Eating weird food and reading about bananas dipped in Kool-aid powder" sort of dream, but the night before I dreamed about a different boyfriend wanting to get in touch with me, and before that my brother wanting to talk to me...what is the deal, I wonder? Sometimes my dreams aren't completely inaccurate. I'm sure Ben the Neighbor has an astrological explanation that makes it all clear...I'm sure Saturn is doing something unauthorized with Uranus that I don't know about. (Okay, stop throwing stuff at the screen; you know I had to say it at least once.)

Speaking of bananas, I have one in the house...and Kool-aid powder too. *shudders* I think I'll pass this morning...