*mutter*

[msfledermaus]

It's been...a day. The usual Sta-Puftian horrors at work. and I called the MIA to see when I should come in for my interview, and they told me they filled the position...but if another security opening came up, I was the first on the call-list...

Fuck. Shit. fuck. Shit. Fuck. Shit...

So I'm still plugging resume's wherever I can. No one else has called me back yet.
I'm working very hard, being very quiet. Keeping my head down. It was a little easier to do when I thought I had a sure-fire doorway out. I'm struggling with myself right now...my basic impulse is to whine and wail and sob, and my sensible self is throttling that with all it's might, because it doesn't really help.
So...

One step at a time. One...two...one...two...

And I'll keep trying to find smiley things to help. Tonight I'm dragging out my back issues of Hectic Planet...for some reason that makes me feel better. Thanks, Evan Dorkin!

Comments

[goldleafgoddess.livejournal.com]

Well, it still helps to know that at least you have it much better than many, and appreciate what you have, even while wanting better.

I know you will find the right place to work. Just keep dedicated to the vision of having it.