Meh..

[msfledermaus]

It's getting really black outside...I'm kind of glad; we need the rain and I've always liked that kind of storm anyway after a ton of hot weather. The relief is palpable...

Otherwise....meh. I had my doctor's appontment yesterday and it wasn't the greatest. (Probably didn't help that it took forever to find the right building and whatnot, so my blood pressure was through the roof when they took it:/ Damn White Coat Syndrome.)
Anyway, the upshot is I have a couple of choices and I have a couple of week before I should pick one...but it's looking very seriously like I need a hysterectomy. I'm not real happy about this, obviously. Yeah, I'm 35 and fairly unlikely to have kids at this stage of my life, but it's still a shock to be told that you REALLY medically won't have any children. It's always been nice to have the option. But medically I should probably do what makes the most health sense...

So anyway, bit depressed for a while. I've been kind of dealing with this anyway; this just speeds up the process some. I'm sure I'll come to better terms with it, and I'm also sure it'll be a relief when I can get this all behind me. I'll almost definitely feel better. So I'm kind of shooting for that right now...

Anyway, time for workies. I should corner the schedular at some point and have a quick talk about needing some downtime after the surgery, whenever I book it. At least I'm not too rushed right now; I have a little time...

Comments

[cynnerth.livejournal.com]

Aww ((Michelle)))
I'm sorry about this. :(

[sirreal13.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear that the verdict is final. M'Luv and I decided not to have kids when I was 29 and she was 35, so I got some plumbing disconnected.

I hope to see you sometime soon {{{Mausi}}}

[rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com]

Oh no - I'm so sorry to hear that. :( Regardless of a person's plan to have children or not, that's just a tough one to deal with. Of course a lack of periods is a definite bonus to the situation. ;)

[annablume.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry.

[heartwork.livejournal.com]

i am in my mid-forties and my gyn said i'm peri-menopausal. though i've accepted as well as i can that i will never have a biological child, it still upset me that now i know i won't.

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that it looks like the surgery is the way to go. It's hard to think about, isn't it.
(((hugs)))

[cobwebshop.livejournal.com]

I'm 42, no children, and certainly not likely at this point. So I know it's hard when it feels like a door is being closed on you. Of course the most important thing is your health, and I'm sure you'll find the right path to a happy healthy Mausi. And that's exactly what this world needs :) Sending many hugs! (grab a basket)

[silentbob037.livejournal.com]

I love it rains after a bunch of hot days in a row. You get the smell of fresh rain and the next day the sky is clear of haze after the rain washed out the atmosphere.

[sasquatch.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear that *hugs*. On the bright side you will have your health and that's the most important thing.

[mcohenmn.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that this has happened to you!

[banana.livejournal.com]

I really hope that things work out for you with this. I also hope that you know that you can have a transfusion of warm comforting feelings from me any time that the medical stuff gets you down.

I have to say that having kids is pretty over-rated, but I have a spare one I could let you have if you're interested.

[mamichan.livejournal.com]

Oh M, I'm sorry that the doctors didn't have better news for you :(
And I'm sorry I'm not at knitting right now! I hope you will let me know if there's anything I can do to help you out, surgery-related or not. Hugs to you!

[ravengirl.livejournal.com]

hey sweetie,
i'm just catching up. i'm sorry to hear this. i'm also encouraged by the fact that medicine is constantly bettering methods and means. i feel confident that you will be healthier and happier and more bouncy than ever before.

you're in my thoughts. you're in a lot of people's thoughts. :)
*love*