Meh..

[msfledermaus]

It's getting really black outside...I'm kind of glad; we need the rain and I've always liked that kind of storm anyway after a ton of hot weather. The relief is palpable...

Otherwise....meh. I had my doctor's appontment yesterday and it wasn't the greatest. (Probably didn't help that it took forever to find the right building and whatnot, so my blood pressure was through the roof when they took it:/ Damn White Coat Syndrome.)
Anyway, the upshot is I have a couple of choices and I have a couple of week before I should pick one...but it's looking very seriously like I need a hysterectomy. I'm not real happy about this, obviously. Yeah, I'm 35 and fairly unlikely to have kids at this stage of my life, but it's still a shock to be told that you REALLY medically won't have any children. It's always been nice to have the option. But medically I should probably do what makes the most health sense...

So anyway, bit depressed for a while. I've been kind of dealing with this anyway; this just speeds up the process some. I'm sure I'll come to better terms with it, and I'm also sure it'll be a relief when I can get this all behind me. I'll almost definitely feel better. So I'm kind of shooting for that right now...

Anyway, time for workies. I should corner the schedular at some point and have a quick talk about needing some downtime after the surgery, whenever I book it. At least I'm not too rushed right now; I have a little time...

Comments

[cynnerth.livejournal.com]

Aww ((Michelle)))
I'm sorry about this. :(

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Yeah, me too:( I'm really not looking forward to this at all.

[sirreal13.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear that the verdict is final. M'Luv and I decided not to have kids when I was 29 and she was 35, so I got some plumbing disconnected.

I hope to see you sometime soon {{{Mausi}}}

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

*nods*
It must have taken a while to adjust to being a non-breeding kind of guy...was it a hard decision?

I'll see what I can do on the seeing--my schedule's now completely kitty-whompus--I still have to book the surgery and whatever the hell they do beforehand, and work stuff out with work and whatever:(

[rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com]

Oh no - I'm so sorry to hear that. :( Regardless of a person's plan to have children or not, that's just a tough one to deal with. Of course a lack of periods is a definite bonus to the situation. ;)

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

I suppose. I'm trying to think of other bright sides...I s'pose I'll save a bundle on birth-control, too...

[rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com]

Instant weight loss? Wonder how much a uterus weighs on its own?

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Well, with the fibroids I'm betting it's more than the average...I've gained a little weight recently, and I wonder if some of that's the fibroids:/

This whole thing would also mark me forever as Hard Core. Genital piercings and tattoos be damned--I'm having my uterus removed!! Top that, Maaaaaan!
*chuckle*

[rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com]

My sister had to have a hysterectomy for the same reason. It was the size of a grapefruit.

And yes, very hard core! I'm wussing up, lost the nipple ring due to migration, took out the genital piercing for an MRI and never put it back in. Still have the nose and navel ring plus the tattoo. I'd like another tattoo.

[annablume.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry.

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Me too. I'm kinda sorry for venting at all you people sitting at your various desks with coffee and what have you...but I couldn't *not* say, you know?

[annablume.livejournal.com]

Nonsense! Of coure you can rant. It's a big deal, and we're your "village".

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Dammit, I love my village...
*hugs you some good*

[heartwork.livejournal.com]

i am in my mid-forties and my gyn said i'm peri-menopausal. though i've accepted as well as i can that i will never have a biological child, it still upset me that now i know i won't.

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Yeah...that's the part I'm wrestling with now, too. It's definitely a big change in how I think about myself right now...I'd always assumed I have a kid, you know? I suppose a lot of people do, since it's part of the culture and whatnot...

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that it looks like the surgery is the way to go. It's hard to think about, isn't it.
(((hugs)))

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Yeah. But it helps to know that you and your mom both did it and were okay. It reeeeeeallly helps me. I'm glad you told me a little about it.

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

If you need any more information I might be able to help with, just ask.

[cobwebshop.livejournal.com]

I'm 42, no children, and certainly not likely at this point. So I know it's hard when it feels like a door is being closed on you. Of course the most important thing is your health, and I'm sure you'll find the right path to a happy healthy Mausi. And that's exactly what this world needs :) Sending many hugs! (grab a basket)

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Oog, I hope this 20-gallon barrel is big enough...
*roll roll roll roll roll*

[silentbob037.livejournal.com]

I love it rains after a bunch of hot days in a row. You get the smell of fresh rain and the next day the sky is clear of haze after the rain washed out the atmosphere.

[sasquatch.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear that *hugs*. On the bright side you will have your health and that's the most important thing.

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

I'm still kinda dealing with this crap...at least it's not as bad as it could be, y'know?

[mcohenmn.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that this has happened to you!

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Me too...but I guess it coulda been worse...I've got all my limbs and things, after all.*waves foot*

[banana.livejournal.com]

I really hope that things work out for you with this. I also hope that you know that you can have a transfusion of warm comforting feelings from me any time that the medical stuff gets you down.

I have to say that having kids is pretty over-rated, but I have a spare one I could let you have if you're interested.

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

I think it'll go okay; I'm told the proceedure has really improved over the years. And with all the warm feelings, I can feel like I have a blanket of happy to keep the scared part from getting too freaked out...

heh, I may borrow your charming children from time to time. I may not ever be a mom, but I do make a pretty decent Weird Auntie:) I can have them make spooky cakes and wear funny cloaks and whatnot. (I bet they do that already!)

[banana.livejournal.com]

They like cake of course, but they're not so keen on dressing up.

"Now, kids, I'm going to put you on the plane to America to visit a woman you don't know who wants to give you cake and dress you in funny clothes. Yes, I know what they taught you at school about that sort of thing, but it's perfectly OK because I met her on the internet. Yes, I know what they taught you at school about meeting people on the internet, but hurry up - your plane's about to leave. You can come back as soon as you've saved enough money for the return flight. Work hard, my little cherubs."

*chokes on tea*

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhhhhhmigod...*tries to think of something to say, loses it and laughs hysterically over the keyboard* THIS is why you're my friend, sir...
*pounds table and giggles for ages*

What have I unleashed? Your children would never forgive you for making them come to America to work in the Jade Mines and learn spell-casting and knitting and get hyped up on sugar....they'd make it back, dripping wet and saucer-eyed, telling you, "Auntie Maus said if I ate all the Pixie-stiks I could swim back home in an hour!!! And she was RIGHT!!!!"

[banana.livejournal.com]

Don't mention spell-casting or they'll be wanting to stay for ever.

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

C'mon, kids, I'll teach you how to turn your math teacher into a carrot!!! It'll be FUN!!

*cracks up some more*

[ravengirl.livejournal.com]

*snort* i just came back here to see what's up with mausi's health,
and here YOU are crackin' me up!! *whew* that was funny, my friend. yes indeedy.

[mamichan.livejournal.com]

Oh M, I'm sorry that the doctors didn't have better news for you :(
And I'm sorry I'm not at knitting right now! I hope you will let me know if there's anything I can do to help you out, surgery-related or not. Hugs to you!

[msfledermaus.livejournal.com]

No prob--I know the Condo's got some moving and painting and whatnot going on...I'm just glad you're my pal:)

[ravengirl.livejournal.com]

hey sweetie,
i'm just catching up. i'm sorry to hear this. i'm also encouraged by the fact that medicine is constantly bettering methods and means. i feel confident that you will be healthier and happier and more bouncy than ever before.

you're in my thoughts. you're in a lot of people's thoughts. :)
*love*